25th Nov 2019, 4:23 PM
Check if you're okay

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Check if you're okay
You check yourself out in the bathroom mirror for any damage to your nose, face, or... anything.

You look exactly like you did when you went to bed last night. No sludge stains, no scrapes or bruises, no brain trauma you can spot at a cursory glance.

Part of you feels silly for even looking--it was just a dream, after all.

It's not even the first time you've had especially weird or vivid dreams; people say you can't read or feel pain in a nightmare, but you can absolutely believe you are and in the moment there's no difference. Your brain also likes to get a little crazy with whatever chemicals make nostalgia--you lost track of how many dreams felt familiar but shouldn't have, in retrospect. You "revisited" dozens of imaginary places for the first time and only woke up confused.

You looked into lucid dreaming once, keeping a dream journal and all that.

It didn't

exactly improve things.

You could indeed become fully aware of when you were in a dream, but even knowing full well it wasn't real you could never change it. You would pinch your arm, shout at yourself to wake up, demand that the dream end--but your dreams refused to end on your terms. You would jump, expecting to have flight in your dreams, but it never worked--and waking up knowing you had been helpless in your own dream didn't make them bother you less, just bother you... differently.

You remember Lora speculating that it was anxiety--that because you felt you had no control over your life, you would subconsciously deprive yourself of control in your dreams, as well.

Like you were punishing yourself.

. . .

On the other hand, this nightmare felt much, much more real than any you've ever had before. You remember it perfectly--the consistency of the sludge, the weight of the barrels, the sound those... things made. You recall every detail like it just finished happening.

You hustle back into your room.

Before you went to sleep last night, you tossed yesterday's clothes into the empty box next to your bed.

You dig them out and check the pockets of your jeans--

and find your house key, ID card, and some money. No sign of the map and floor guide you'd stumbled across--but you remember what was on them, and you remember the area you explored well enough that you can pretty much visualize how the floor structure should look in your head.

Over a breakfast of cheap soda and a microwaved burrito, you start up your computer and document your dream. You also realize that--since it's about 10:20am now, you slept for something vaguely to the tune of at least 8 hours. You DEFINITELY weren't in the mind prison (anxiety dungeon? nightmare oubliette?) for 8 hours.

So, that's one less point in favor of magical hell adventure

and one more point in favor of this is it, Plaire, you've finally fucking snapped

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25th Nov 2019, 5:09 PM
Ok, have something to eat, calm down.
25th Nov 2019, 6:08 PM
you mean get something more substantial in than just a cheap soda and a microwave burrito right?... probably should go around town and see what the local food joints are.
Take out's far better than whatever we've got on hand right now.
26th Nov 2019, 11:10 AM
25th Nov 2019, 5:10 PM
Contemplate on Lora briefly
25th Nov 2019, 5:15 PM
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25th Nov 2019, 5:14 PM
Wow, we seriously need to improve our diet. We should check if there are any things we need to do in the near future that involve going outside, and maybe make a shopping run for some real food. Hummus, fresh spinach and some pita do wonders as quick healthy food. Also yogurt, the 2% or whole milk stuff, not the fat free sugar filled fare. Although jam/honey do go very well with it. Also mixed salted nuts, great for protein snacking at the desk.
25th Nov 2019, 5:25 PM
If we can get our hands on some skyr (Icelandic strained yoghurt, like Greek yoghurt but more Norse) we can eat healthy food and also feel like a Viking.
25th Nov 2019, 5:26 PM
25th Nov 2019, 5:49 PM
I was about to suggest this. Buy some dang healthy food already.
25th Nov 2019, 7:57 PM
25th Nov 2019, 11:42 PM
+1 to some decent breakfast.
26th Nov 2019, 1:52 AM
or at the very least compile a list of nearby restaurants that have take out. Honestly even fast food's probably better than what we've got in the house at the moment.
26th Nov 2019, 11:11 AM
25th Nov 2019, 5:15 PM
Eh, if weird dreams were all it took for someone to be proclaimed crazy... Don't worry about that stuff: dreams are weird and can vary a lot (even without them likely being scary magical adventures).
Eat breakfast and try to relax a little. Though maybe not by playing video games, but taking a relaxing walk around the neighbourhood, you know, to clear your head a little.
(This is not solely a ploy so we can finally see what the outside's like, no siree!)
25th Nov 2019, 5:27 PM
+1 obviously and truly not a ploy to see the neighborhood
25th Nov 2019, 5:28 PM
A walk sounds like a great idea, presuming Plaire is not like, terrified of outside and all the people and germs and stuff it ends to have. (Even if she is, a very short walk might do us good anyways. Even to the end of the driveway counts. We can pretend to be looking to see if we got a newspaper or something. Dealing with anxiety takes baby steps~)

Also, we can consider coming up with an exercise routine to do during breaks in video games. Each new area, do a certain number of jumping jacks, pushups, etc. (even if we have to do the easy version of pushups, from your knees instead of your toes) Or every time we level up, or something. Depends on the game.
25th Nov 2019, 5:50 PM
26th Nov 2019, 1:03 AM
I know of at least a few people with frequent and consistent nightmares, so even dreams like this happening on a regular basis isn't abnormal.
25th Nov 2019, 5:29 PM
It may not affect our anxiety levels, but we might wanna do the dream journal thing anyways, just to have it all written down.

What's our video publishing schedule like? Do we have anything we need to be working on today, after we make our toilette and do a bit of exercise and such?
25th Nov 2019, 7:08 PM
Loose Cog
+1, maintaining our job is pretty important, so yeah, accomplish all necessary job goals.
25th Nov 2019, 7:45 PM
Loose Cog
Realize that we have an exceptionally clear memory of the map from the dream.
25th Nov 2019, 8:07 PM
Maybe look into sword-fighting lessons. At the very least, it's probably good exercise.

25th Nov 2019, 8:09 PM
Do a silly wiggly dance to raise our spirits!
25th Nov 2019, 9:42 PM
In a manner that'd be very easy to make as an animated .gif.
25th Nov 2019, 11:43 PM
Sanity's always been overrated anyway.
25th Nov 2019, 11:59 PM
26th Nov 2019, 6:57 AM
My theory: Lora is our doctor friend. Probably psychologist.
26th Nov 2019, 9:22 AM
In addition to all the good suggestions about going out and getting better food, keep an eye out for buildings with the dungeon floor plan in real life while you're out. Maybe there's a mall nearby or something.
26th Nov 2019, 9:44 AM
Hey, come on! Going crazy isn't a bad thing! Especially... *clap* If you make it fun!
26th Nov 2019, 6:24 PM
Can't spell slaughter without laughter!